SO sorry I haven't written in so long. Since my last post, I've reached a few milestones!
1) I passed the 100 lbs. lost biggie.
2) I just bought my first size 8 item.
Remember that my goal is to just be a size 8 ... not a certain weight, but a size. But before we celebrate too much, let's note that the size 8 item was a very cute denim Michael Kors jacket, NOT pants. As exciting as it was (and trust me, I was lovingly stroking the size 8 tag, and I'm considering "accidentally" wearing it inside out so the size shows), my real goal is to be able to wear size 8 pants. And it'll be a while for that.
I am now safely into size 14 pants, though. I absolutely can no longer shop in Lane Bryant or The Avenue for anything. Their smallest size, their tightest skinny jeans, now swim on me.
And THAT is exciting.
Ah, the joys of being able to go into your basic Ross or T.J. Maxx and browse through the "normal" sizes and find treasures galore. I'm still Cheapy McCheap when I buy stuff. For example, the aforementioned, much beloved Michael Kors jacket was from Burlington Coat Factory. Retail price tag: $149.50 Burlington price: $29.99 :)
I even bought a size 12 skirt at Kohls recently. It's so freakin' awesome to try something on and actually LIKE what I look like in the mirror.
Lately a couple of people have said to me that they assumed I didn't have much more to lose. As if. But one woman said that I only looked like I could lose about another 20 lbs. Now, I easily could lose another 40 or 50 and still look good (according to the charts, I could lose much more than that, but who goes by those hated charts any more??) but for someone to say that I don't LOOK like I could lose that much, that's a beautiful thing. The fact that I'm down to the point where people don't think I need to lose any more than 20 lbs .... wow.
I have one girlfriend who I actually confide my weight in. We had dinner the other night and she asked me what I weighed now. I told her -- and she said "You don't look like you weigh anywhere near that much." I've always weighed more than I look like I weigh, mostly because lots of it is in my thighs, which I can hide well with clothing.
But the reality is that I know what I weigh, and I know where I need to be to be truly healthy, and I'll get there.
I'm wondering when you stop losing. Does your body just know when it's at its optimum weight?
Okay, the stats:
Original lbs. to lose: 140 (although I'm thinking of revising this to 150)
Lbs. lost so far: 102
Lbs. left to lose: 38
Original size: 26 pants, 22 tops
Current size: 14 pants, Medium tops
Plus that 15 lbs. between January and the April surgery, so really 117 total!
No real issues with eating. Now that I've passed the 6 month mark, I can ease some starches back into my diet, but I'm not rushing out to do that. I still need to get enough protein in, and eating even the tiniest bit of rice, for example, fills me up too much and I can't eat the shrimp or beef or whatever I have with it. So a bite or two is it.I need to try chicken again and see if I can digest it okay. Just don't wanna try it in public. :)
By the way, my 6 month check-up went well. I had to get blood work done the week before so they could make sure my levels of everything were fine, and the doctor said they were perfect. My cholesterol, my iron, everything was great. And oh, get a load of this. My initial BMI (body mass index) was 55.1. It is now 37.3. 30 is within the okay/normal range.
As far as how I feel, I've felt fantastic EXCEPT for some major constipation issues, which I will do you a favor and not share with you. :)
More soon, I promise!
