Back to work........

Hmmm.... it's not even 2pm and I need a nap.

First, an update:

Original pounds to lose: 140
Pounds lost so far: 23
Pounds left to lose: 117

I went back to work today and though it was great being back and seeing everybody, I feel very overwhelmed. It feels like everyone's talking too much and too loud and there are too many bright lights in the city and everything's moving so fast..... I've been in my little cocoon for 2 weeks with my little Maltese Rocco on my lap watching The View and Ellen and my world didn't go any farther than my new food processor and my loveseat. My big outings were taking Rocco for walks around the neighborhood twice a day. We've been walking a half a mile or more each time, twice a day, so that's been great. But a neighborhood during the day is very quiet - nothing like a busy downtown office building.

So here I am back at my desk trying to catch up on emails and work and phone messages and I'm wishing I had the luxury of working 1/2 days for the first couple of days back.

But whatever - I'm back and I'm sure I'll get back in the swing of things. It's been great talking to everybody - lots of people have questions and are asking how I'm feeling and it makes me feel really great to hear people say they missed me.

Today we had a breakfast at a restaurant with one of our station representatives and I had to get up early enough to make myself a scrambled egg and puree it to bring with me. Not to mention crushing up my potassium pill, mixing it in with my applesauce, and packing all my "supplies" to bring to work for the week. So that kinda sucked - sitting at breakfast watching everyone eat these great breakfasts but having to pull out my little mini-Gladware with my breakfast. But actually it's not that bad because I'm not hungry so it's not like I could eat what they had anyway.

But here's the two things that are getting to me so far:

Domino's has this commercial out right now for their Brooklyn Style Pizza -- you know the kind of pizza that is really thin and floppy and you have to fold it to eat it ... mmmmm.... well, it's hard to explain, but the visuals of that pizza are making me crazy. It's not like if it was in front of me I would be able to take more than 2 bites without getting full, but it's a visual thing, I guess.

The other thing is yesterday my mom asked if I could bring her some Buffalo wings for dinner. So I ordered them for her and for Rudy and went and picked them up and brought them to her. Watching her eat them was hard - not torturous - but a little tough. Because Buffalo wings are one of my favorite foods, and there's no way I could have even gotten a bite down if I wanted to. The smell was fantastic, though.

So visuals and smells are still getting to me, even though I don't really want the food. I guess it's like a married man checking out a gorgeous woman - he knows he can't do anything about it, but he still appreciates the aesthetics. :)

I'll try and post a photo early this week. I can tell that I've lost 23 lbs., because my clothes are looser and I can see it in my face and neck, but I don't think anyone else can tell. That's understandable, and not really frustrating yet. But if I've lost like 40 and people still can't tell, then I'll be pissed. :)

So don't expect to be able to see any difference in these next few photos. Just want to make sure I keep the blog interesting with pics.

Thanks for reading!