Feeling almost normal now...

I've heard that it takes about a month of doing the same thing every day to develop a habit. I'm on Day 21 since my surgery and I almost feel like my "new life" has become a comfortable habit to me.

Don't get me wrong - it's still a pain to crush my giant potassium pill and plead with it to blend into whatever I'm eating for breakfast ... and chewing the giant calcium and multi-vitamins - 4 in the morning and 4 in the evening - all that is still annoying ... but it's like it's an annoying part of my normal day and it doesn't seem as intrusive as it used to. Now it's just like one of those inevitables that accost all of us every day - like tolls or traffic or that annoying co-worker. Nothing I can't deal with, shrug my shoulders, and go on with my day.

But what I want to know is, why is everything so small for me now -- tiny little bowls, cute little 5 inch plates, little sippy cups, tiny little 1 oz. servings .... but the freakin' vitamins are like the size of a Krystal burger???

Can't someone make bariatric vitamins that are not so big they fill us up as much as a meal?

I feel MUCH better now, though. I feel healthy and not as tired and draggy. Just the past 3 days or so has made so much difference. And that makes me feel happier.

I tried a new recipe last night from my binder I got from the hospital ... turkey meatloaf. It had no breadcrumbs in it, so no starch (which I can't have until the 6 month mark). Instead you mixed mozzeralla cheese in with it, spices, and an egg, of course. It came out really good and I put some jazzed-up tomato puree over it and yummy! That 1.5 oz. of meatloaf (really funny how little that is!) was simply delish. I also sauteed some fresh spinach in some olive oil and garlic and I had a wonderful - albeit tiny - meal. And yes, I was full.

I'm finding that being creative and trying new things is what's keeping my spirits up and keeping me from missing food too much. As in everything in life, the key to keeping me happy and interested is using my creativity!

I am frustrated because for the last 4-5 days that I've stepped on the scale I've weighed the same! Here's the latest tally:

Initial pounds to lose: 140
Pounds lost: 25
Pounds left to lose: 115

But I can't get past that 25-lbs. lost mark and it's starting to piss me off. :) I mean, it's not like I can really do anything differently ... I'm already following exactly what I'm supposed to be doing. In fact, if anything, I'm not eating ENOUGH -- sometimes I can't get in everything.

I think the key here is I need to stop weighing myself every single day. I'll try and weigh myself twice a week. If I can be that patient.

And I need to look at the big picture and realize that in 21 days I've lost 25 lbs., for God's sake.

I mean, I know the weight loss will eventually start back up again - but I got spoiled for a while seeing at least a 2-lb. loss every day.

And here's a question for everyone: What's more important ... the number on the scale or the clothes size you wear? We were discussing this the other day at work. For me, I want to be a size 10. I don't care what I weigh to get into a size 10, but that's what I want. For some people I guess it's a particular number they weighed in college or something, but for me it's a size. I imagine for men it might be a certain pants/jeans waist size. I'd be interested in your responses to that question.